I feel like the 'not responding' message is one that my computer likes to give me a lot these days. You know...the message that comes up in parentheses when nothing is happening even though you're pushing all the right keys. Like you don't know that it's not responding. I can kind of understand, though. I think I'm like my computer in this way--when I feel totally maxed out, I freak out. Though my computer seems to have the ability to just withdraw from me trying to make it do a gazillion things at once, I have yet to perfect the art of taking a break quietly. Instead, I go into emotional overdrive. And so, this is where you'll find me these days and why you haven't found me posting all of the slideshows that I promised. I feel like the theme of my life these days is my busy-ness. I don't know how to talk about that in a way that doesn't sound like I'm complaining. Trust me. I am not complaining! Starting this business and getting to do something every day that I LOVE is an amazing thing. Feeling totally energized and challenged by that love has been something I never would have dared to imagine that I would experience. Right now is just a weird, in the middle kind of time. I am still working another job and Corey is still doing all of our orders and processing stuff. We are busier than we ever have been and it is EXCITING stuff. I am so excited about what the future holds but know that the next few months will continue to bring lots of times where my scared, tired and untrusting self has a louder voice than I wish that it did.
Also, for those of you that don't know, Corey and I are in the middle of the adoption process. We are SUPER excited but also know that we potentially have a very long wait ahead of us. We are looking forward to the end of our paperwork being done this week. Also, we are renovating a house that we bought about a month ago. It was a fabulous deal and one that we were not looking to throw into the mix of our already chaotic life. My husband works miracles in old houses and I am amazed at what he can do. I do confess that the chaos of two homes, multiple businesses, an adoption, and all the other life stuff has been just as chaotic as you might think.
I know that I keep promising Christmas cards. I know that I keep promising one-year plans for baby pictures. I know that I keep promising a new show on the blog every day. Thank you to everyone who reads this blog and keeps believing me even though I continue to postpone everything that I say. Thanks for trusting me that my heart is to do all of those things and that every night that I go to sleep yet again without finishing those things leaves me with a sinking feeling. Thanks for knowing that one of these days, I am going to get to throw all of my time into this venture. And most of all, thanks for continuing to tell your friends about me. That makes me feel like the future is much sooner than later.
I have so many pictures of so many beautiful children to post. Here is just one:
Bradley and Emma Claire